Here, everything is borrowed.
Boats trafficking their own
arterial drift: blood or something
handsomer, making its own sense
of time, irradiating plastic
eternity in his slow planetary
pass-pass—language curdled
into paste and foam at the lips
hanging, as waves between sand
halves any idea of wonder. How
beautiful to float unbothered
past the valved heart to a brain
aching for its own branching ideas
of life past crude dominion. Fire
in the membrane a cool glass
of brandy, and the ill-positioned
liver taken to the piss for a night.
Have I filtered anything right
in my life? I have borrowed
my body from the right vendor.
I have borrowed my light from
the nearest lantern. I have
nothing that engines on its own.
I have borrowed your time,
and for that I am so very sorry.
그곳에서 내 몸 하나 빌려주었다
피 줄 올라타는 여기저기 떠가는 배
늘 빈 그 자리석에 시간을 감춰 두웠다
맑게 못 거르는 피 먹은 강 위에서
길게 썩어가는 쓰레기 봉투처럼 지구 하나
지구 하나 스쳐가는 별들처럼 흘러내려갔다
입술에 매달린 거품 찬 언어도
떠오르는 번개 반으로 가르는
한모금 한모금 파도를 삼켜가는 모래의 삶
뭐가 더 아름다울 수 있을까
겁 없이 심장을 벗어나
머리속에서 피어난 구름 번개처럼
쓰러지는 제국없이 빛을 남길 수 있으니
참한 술을 내 목구멍 속으로 내려놓으며
내 속 담도 불을 띠울 수 있을까?
불쌍한 일만 아는 나의 물러터진 간
쓰레기만 거르는 인간
내가 이 지구에서 제대로 거르는게 뭐일까?
멀쩡한 몸 하나 빌렸다
달 빛도 빌렸다
내가 혼자서 풀어나간게 없다
시간 을 뺏어 실례합니다
미안합니다 죄송합니다
There-there I lent myself out,
bloodline riding here-and-after, a boat
as its empty seat, hiding
my time, all of me
on blood river ride, dirtying
like an indefatigable plastic bag: planet
brushing planet, star drifting down river.
Blood foam on my lips hang
ideas of a brain clouding thunder, split
over the life of a single grain of sand
swallowing wave after wave
the seas. What is beauty in this:
to steal past the heart tolls to drift
into a brain for its own ideas of thunder,
bum-empire behind to leave my own lamp
bright lit? Pour me down a clear glass of brightly
filtered brandy my liver pulped
pathetic, filtering garbage as if
it is its own person. What is it
I’ve ever done right in this life?
I have borrowed a good body.
Borrowed the moon, some light.
Never have I ever ridden my blood ties.
I am sorry I have borrowed
your time. Sorry. I am sorry.